I think in order to really explain why I'm feeling like this will need some background.

A couple months ago my friend Malorie was dating this guy, Fred (ironically her dad's name is Fred.). He's 31 she's 21 and has a kid (to be honest he has a couple kids with different women). In a week or so she breaks up with him, I ask her why and give her a nudge to say 'Hey maybe he's not that bad.' However from the beginning I'v had this weird feeling about him. As did her younger sister, Jaime (Jermi) who is also my friend.

After they broke up their mom, Brenda continued talking to him. She would babysit his daughter Trinity. Jermi was admittedly
a bit jealous. I believe Malorie moved out after that, I think it was due to the fact her and her mom hadn't been getting along well. Her mom didn't seem to understand why she broke up with this Fred. So she moved out and she seems content with that.

Dad Fred and Brenda seem to be arguing a lot, Brenda wants to be able to go out and 'live her own life' as she keeps saying. Eventually in a month or so they seperate. He moves out into an apartment close to his daughter's and he seems happy. Brenda says she's happy now that she's not living his life, now that she's not being tied down. So now it's her and Jermi living together.

The entire time Jermi has been the conduit between Brenda and Malorie, since they haven't been able to talk without arguing. This is very stressful for her. Jermi has been getting in more disagreements with her mom more than usual it seems. Jermi doesn't like Fred or Trinity, neither does Mal. (Trinity is just a child so I can't hate her, however I do think she is misbehaved.)

So now fast forwarding to a bit more recent. Jermi was told she wouldn't have to watch Trinity over the summer and that Trinity wouldn't be there that much. However despite what her mom may say, Trinity is there...a lot. More recently, Trinity AND Fred are there. In fact they both spent the night this past week.

Jermi is strong and manages to deal. However I know she represses a lot, as does Malorie. I know this is hard on them and I want so much to make it better but I know Brenda has her mind set on something. I love Brenda, she's like my second mom. I just can't stand to watch Jermi and Mal so unhappy :(

Brenda talks so much about wanting to live life her way. This may be just my opinion but if it effects your child so drastically you should suck it up until she's 18 (mind you that's in a year). When you have a child you accept the responsibility of making them happy, putting them before yourself. That's how I feel.

Every Friday for the past month or so Jermi has to stay somewhere else, because Friday is her mom's day alone. I don't really see them spending a lot of time together these days.

Brenda has more pictures of Trinity posted on her myspace (yes she has one, she got one in the middle of all this) than of Jermi. It seems she treats Trinity like a daughter, and of course Jermi is jealous. I understand that Brenda cares a lot of Trinity, I just don't understand why... I don't understand why all of this is caused by one guy.

I told Brenda I couldn't stay if he was going to be there. I don't think she believed me so she told me I was being unfair to Jermi... making me feel guilty yes, however what my mom says goes. She said we could stay with Mal, but I have to do schoolwork Thursday and Friday so I can't. So I'm unfair. She was obviously mad at me.


Now I'm sure I left out a lot of details on all of this. I'm very tired and very sad. I just want Jermi, Malorie, and Brenda to be happy. I think they should all see a psychologist, it might open up something deeper.

So tomorrow I'm going to get the number from my old psychologist and give it to Malorie, she seems like she'd be the one to see one first.

I want everyone to be happy, I don't want to see a family fall apart because of some lame guy. I don't trust him, there's just something about him.

 


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He's supposed to be moving out.

He's just taking his good old time.

I'm never gonna get anything done.

Bitches, I'm posting on my dsi.

Why am I so miserable? There's nothing unusual to be upset about yet I feel like crying.

Duncan gets fixed tomorrow.

I'm stuck at home with my dad tomorrow.

Life is tragic.

These are NOT scanning well D:

Since I've been in such a slump I'm gonna try the 100 theme challenge. I ganked this from dA.

1) You have to draw a FINISHED picture for each of there words/themes.
2) Start with #1. DON'T CONTINUE TO #2 UNLESS YOU'VE UPLOADED IT!!! YOU CAN'T SKIP AROUND!!! This way you can't cheat, and you acctually have to FINISH something!
3) Be creative!!! Have fun!!!

1. Introduction - [finished]
2. Love- [finished]
3. Light-
4. Dark-
5. Seeking Solace-
6. Break Away
7. Heaven-
8. Innocence -
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

It was a beautiful day today, about 80 degrees out. I spent most the day outside after all my classes were done. It was wonderful. A good day in all.