A couple of meaningless things before I rant on.

My pink dye came out for the most part.

I get my bunny Friday.

We're going in to bitch at the school tomorrow.

And I'm bored like mad. So here's the rant. FORWARD MINIONS FORWARD



It's the fourth of July, I expected it would be lame. But I didn't know it would be quite so lame.

I've been up since last night, my mom's been up since 4am. She's cried today. She's been miserable.

My dad said he wanted a divorce and that he threw all our stuff outside and if we wanted it to come pick it up off the lawn.

My dad disgusts me, how dare he call himself a father. He's a pathetic excuse for a damn father.

All my life I've tried to believe, things WILL get better, and they haven't gotten any goddamn better, it's gotten worse.

And very few people know what it's like, sure other people are worse off...but that doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt.

Nobody should have to go through life doubting themselves and their motives.

I want to be happy, but maybe I wont be able to achieve that until I'm free on my own.

Life always seems to rain on my parade.

But you know what, life can suck my balls. I have a wonderful mother, and wonderful siblings, and although few, I've got some really great friends.

They've all stuck by me through thick n thin, the nice n the ugly, the darkness n light, the bad and the good, and I've never really said thank you to any of them.

Thank you, half of them wont see this sadly, not many people read my journals.

But Thank you.

Most days I lay in bed asleep, or playing video games. Some days I spend with my awesome friends...other days are bad days.

I can stand boring.

But bad days make me doubt everything about life and about myself.

I want to leave this shit hole town some day, and hopefully I will.

Even if I don't have what it takes to be a model, I've still got my skills with some paper and whatever makes lines.

Something has to take me somewhere you know?!

I'm not a hard worker, but if I need to be I can be, I'm not polite but if I need to be I can be, I'm not sympathetic but if I need to be I can be.

Life's a horrible little crack whore bitch, I hate it but I try to endure. Because although my dad situation may never get better, there are other things.