So I'm laying here.

Forget looking at the screen I got my head on the bed and my  eyes closed so don't expect a lot.

I took a sleeping pill to make it go away. To make my skin stop crawling. I'm beat. I just want to curl up in bed but I can't.

I need to rant. It's been so  long.

I don't know what life is doing. I don't like it.

My baby cousin has cancer. My dad is nothing but trouble. My mom...mom. My sister moved. And would you look at me,Ha hell, I'm falling asleep while typing this. I guess I should hit the bricks.

Not that i want to, I just want to ooooooooooooerk                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            
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Okay, so I fell asleep while I was typing XD I slept until morning so go me. I figure I could go ahead and continue the entry. I'm not feeling like such shit though so I'm sure it'll be different.

Life hates my face, hives, UTI, cold, period...I mean damn all at once?!! That's brutal and it sucks.

Since I've last updated we found out my 3 year old cousin has cancer in his lungs and bones. He's been pretty good though. He's in the hospital a lot but the chemo is helping, I'm going up to see him later today (if everything goes as planned).

So while I was zonking last night I was so tuned in when Metalocalypse was on XD, it was weird cos I was like sleeping but not and it was just whoa. I'm obsessed again, not that it's a bad thing, not even uncommon.

My Johnny is unhappy n I deno what to do, it makes me so unhappy to know he's so miserable. I've got faith that he'll be able to get back on his feet though.

My dad is still living with us since there was this whole suicide thing with me. I've been away from lj enough that anyone who reads these has no idea what I'm talking about. But I had a break down.

I'm okay now though I've got a psychologist and a psychiatrist and some new medication to go along with my Effexor .

I spent my Halloween with Jermi, it was fun until I got the news about my cousin.

My sister finally moved out with her ex ex boyfriend, Joe. So they have their own place in Olean, NY. I stayed once. Pretty nice place.

In a nutshell everything is as it should be.

I'm gonna post some art so take a look if you will.