First off, my cousin has a carepage on some website, if any of you would like to see just drop a comment and I'll instruct you there

It's updates are probably more in depth than anything I'll give but here's what I can provide from the page.



So anyway, life has been the same. My UTI is still there but I now have some good ol medication. Yay me, should be gone here soon.

I'm blowing off all of my work for classes right now, they're boring and I wanna do something more fun.
I went to customize my lj moods n it died n didn't save so I have to upload like a bagillion more things again, trying to get cute Dethklok moods XD



Dethklok obsession still running it's course. Obviously.

I went to see Aiden today, he's doing very well  good to see. He might be able to come home today. That is until his next treatment of chemo, then it's back to Buffalo.

Now. Marky.

I was talking to my mom in the car about crappy names and I said I didn't like mine. She said she wanted to name me Marky Renae but my dad would have none of it.
Nobody I've brought it up to likes it, but you know what screw them. I like it. So my mom asked me if I'd rather be called Marky, n I said yes. This doesn't mean I'm getting a legal name change but I get to be Marky.

Although I would like to talk to them about really getting it changed. I like Marky Renae better. It's cuter and not common. That and my dad picks poopy names.

So I'm laying here.

Forget looking at the screen I got my head on the bed and my  eyes closed so don't expect a lot.

I took a sleeping pill to make it go away. To make my skin stop crawling. I'm beat. I just want to curl up in bed but I can't.

I need to rant. It's been so  long.

I don't know what life is doing. I don't like it.

My baby cousin has cancer. My dad is nothing but trouble. My mom...mom. My sister moved. And would you look at me,Ha hell, I'm falling asleep while typing this. I guess I should hit the bricks.

Not that i want to, I just want to ooooooooooooerk                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            
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Okay, so I fell asleep while I was typing XD I slept until morning so go me. I figure I could go ahead and continue the entry. I'm not feeling like such shit though so I'm sure it'll be different.

Life hates my face, hives, UTI, cold, period...I mean damn all at once?!! That's brutal and it sucks.

Since I've last updated we found out my 3 year old cousin has cancer in his lungs and bones. He's been pretty good though. He's in the hospital a lot but the chemo is helping, I'm going up to see him later today (if everything goes as planned).

So while I was zonking last night I was so tuned in when Metalocalypse was on XD, it was weird cos I was like sleeping but not and it was just whoa. I'm obsessed again, not that it's a bad thing, not even uncommon.

My Johnny is unhappy n I deno what to do, it makes me so unhappy to know he's so miserable. I've got faith that he'll be able to get back on his feet though.

My dad is still living with us since there was this whole suicide thing with me. I've been away from lj enough that anyone who reads these has no idea what I'm talking about. But I had a break down.

I'm okay now though I've got a psychologist and a psychiatrist and some new medication to go along with my Effexor .

I spent my Halloween with Jermi, it was fun until I got the news about my cousin.

My sister finally moved out with her ex ex boyfriend, Joe. So they have their own place in Olean, NY. I stayed once. Pretty nice place.

In a nutshell everything is as it should be.

I'm gonna post some art so take a look if you will.

Alright, so things are finally settling down in our happy little bum fucked home. There's still tension between my mom and my sister, they'll deny it but I can tell.

I sucked up to make my mom happy, it seemed to work. Last night she called me fat, I couldn't tell if she was serious or not though =S . Either way, it still hurt.

I can't sleep, I got up at six thirty but I went to bed at like two am. I can't get back to sleep. I tried taking a shower n it didn't help, I feel ill.

I'm still bummed that I can't go to my friends birthday party, my mom still doesn't want me to. She says I'm -l a z y- and she's right.

I burnt my face using the deep fryer last night, o.O it hurt...a lot.

I guess my dad and I are gonna watch The Omen, LOL scary movie at 7:30am that seems a little off. I usually don't watch scary things til' late.

I can't wait til' summer, even though the heat will indeed kill me, everything is just more fun in the summer. MORE NAKED TIME.

Been watching this yuri show Strawberry Panic, it's pretty cute. YAY girls kissing. Yaoi and Yuri, two of the best things of life =D.

I think Milkshake belongs to the neighbors, someone called asked about a cat, and hung up.

I really don't care, I love that kitty, and unless someone comes to get her personally, then I'm not doing a damn thing about it.

K well, I'm bored and quite tired - not that I'm going to sleep -
I'm Out